He took the book and looked it over. I knew what he was going to say before he even said it, and I knew it was a lie before it was even stated. There was no way that I was normal; there was no way that a nine-year-old child that looked twice her age was normal. I couldn't come to grips with that, and I suppose in a sense I would never be normal if I never looked my age. The only time I could pretend to be normal would be once I turn 18, when my uncle predicts I'll begin to age, albeit slower. For that one year I might feel close to normal, but only if I can overcome my issues.
"huh?" Somehow, while deep in my thoughts, I had managed to follow Iori into the living room and taken a seat. I was taken out of my thoughts when he asked me if I wanted something to drink. I hadn't thought about it but I was a bit thirsty, but I shook my head no regardless then proceeded to avoid eye contact with the strange contraption. I thought maybe I should be used to them by now, but I wasn't. Every time I went to the Yamazaki Estate I was put off by his strange creatures and mechanisms. I couldn't help it; they were very… off putting. I didn't know how Chizuru didn't have nightmares, having to sleep in the same house as them, but then again she was into this kind of thing.
"Groups of people?" I started to think about it, something I never did. I avoided large groups of people as often as I could, preferring to stick to the shadows or jump from rooftop to rooftop to get to where I was going. Either that or I just stayed at the mansion, or the Chika Bonsatu (though I don't like it there much, there's not very much room in the hallways).
"I feel threatened. In a group, it's harder to retain my personal space. I can't protect the key; I can't keep the darkness in." I stared at the floor, shifting my eyes from side to side imagining myself being in a group of people.
"People get curious, people go for the key, the key gets turned and the darkness gets out!" I cringed and threw my face into my hands. The darkness can never get out without my permission, otherwise bad things would happen.