Utsumi tilts her head in that curious way she's used to - first right, then left, almost canine in its attempt at perception - and then lowers her notebook. She hugs it briefly to her chest, fingers tap-tapping on the page in time with Mitsuha's words, then drops it further. She clasps it with one hand at her side, as if unwilling to put it down, but tucks her pen behind an ear so that she could better focus her attention on the lesson.
The smile she gave Mitsuha in turn was earnest and warm, sheer excitement in little red eyes that sparkled their refraction of wonder. Her replies were all eager nods; not to rush, yet simply unable to keep herself still or resist the immediate response. She wasn't usually prone to fidgeting - the idea of constant movement out of character for someone usually as fluid as Utsumi - but she couldn't stop herself from leaning in with a tilt of her head as her teacher picked up their vials. All of her lessons had been books and homework and knowledge checks - writ and read - and this was her first chance for practical application in the Shinobi world. It didn't smell very good.
The lock of shock as Mitsuha introduced herself with the potency of these poisons and then downed one in front of her - almost seeming to grimace but not otherwise balk from the ingestion - overtook Utsumi's widened eyes. She glanced around hurriedly, setting her book on the edge of a desk so that she could raise both hands in front of her and wave them like
'wait, no!' -- a comical if honest reaction to her surprise. Mitsuha, for her graces, continued on with the lesson, and over her coming explanation and the unveiling of the antidotes did Utsumi quickly calm down with a relieved sigh. Her hand to her chest, she took the antidote and offered a sympathetic look to her teacher. She also picked up her directed poison - the Serpent's Blood - with no hesitation, as if her concern came from a place for Mitsuha rather than nerves about the poisons.
She looked between the two vials she held, tilting her head again, and then resolutely nodded towards Mitsuha and popped the stopper out of the poison. She shot it. It was a single, sharp motion, tilting her head back and taking the Serpent's Blood in easy stride with a blank expression on her face. When she brought her head back down, looking over at Mitsuha, she seemed pleasant and controlled for a moment.
All but a moment.
The Serpent's Blood began to set in. She was small, even for her age, and had little in the way of a poison immune system with no prior experience. It hit her chest with a dull thrum, pulsating out in slow, languid waves through the rest of her limbs until her arms started to drag and her ears proffered pounding. Her legs shook as the atrophy set in, just once, then once more, subsequent shakes emotional rather than physical. Her eyes were wide with terror - desperation - as she fought her body to grip the edge of the closest desk.
Ba-dum. Ba-dum. Ba-dum. No. She couldn't call for help. She opened her mouth with tremoring shoulders and no sound came out - not a fault of the paralysis - and nails like claws dug into the wood as she gasped.
Because she couldn't call for help, her body
needed to work. She had to be able to see everything - hear everything - feel everything - or she was unsafe. She didn't cover her hands, or her eyes, or her ears; she relied so heavily on her senses to 'make up' for her inabilities, she couldn't handle the feeling of losing them, too. She moved too slow now. What if someone needed something? What if they passed her by? The room was blurry. The poison itself wasn't that
strong - it was more fits of small spasms and lethargy, some nausea - but the sheer fear response to having her senses inhibited at all made her lunge her hands around the antidote and shoot it down less steadily than the poison. Sputtering, her only sounds uneven breaths as she stood hunched over the desk.
She couldn't look up - embarrassed - even as her heart started to slow and the world bled back to normal, her panic subsiding in concerto with the antidote cleaning her system. She moved first to write something, a small tremor remaining in her hands, and held up the note.
Sorry. : ( I'll do better next time.
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