The next morning, Akane was notified that something had happened to her mother, and it was under investigation. Akane was not told exactly what happened, she believed her mother just got into an accident, and was hurt. So Akane believed she would be taken to the hospital.
Akane waited for some word, to tell her what exactly was going on. She was worried, and she felt tight in her chest. But she was calm, and just thought maybe she got burnt or something. She was only told her mother got hurt at work, so there was no need to worry. The logical choice of action was to wait till she got home. So akane waited at home.
Soon Akane got a knock on her door, it didn't take long. Akane got up and walked to the door, she expected it to be a delivery or something. Instead, it was an officer, with some paper work.
"How can I help you?" She questioned, with a small smile.
The officer seemed a little off. "I am sorry to inform you that Tsukino has been murdered. I have brought some paper work for you to fill out, and a report of the investigation." He explained.
Akane was confused, was he lying to her? No... she couldnt be dead.... Akane took the folder with the papers, and nodded to the man. "Are you sure?" She asked with a slight glare.
The office looked a little more nervous, and gave her the look 'dont shoot the messenger'. "uh... Yes. I am sorry for your loss. Just deliver the papers to the morgue when you've completed them..." He explained in a hurry.
Akane closed the door on him, and walked to her couch. She didn't believe it. Everyone loved her mother, who would hurt her? Akane opened up the report of the investigation.... She read that her mother was stabbed... the culprits had already been found. Somehow they were killed in custody. Akane felt like she did not have enough information....
She didn't want any more information. She didnt want to believe this had happened, even though logic states other wise. Her mind told her to stay calm, things happened. No, she didn't want to stay calm. She didn't want this at all. She hated this....
Akane was over come with emotions that she had never felt before... No she's felt these emotions before.... When her father died, and she couldn't do anything... hen the demon possessed her, and she was helpless... She felt hatred, sadness, and fear. She didnt want these feelings... Before she knew it, tears were streaming down her face, she was shaking. She felt alone, and the silence ate her.
"please no..." Akane muttered to herself. She felt a pain in her heart, physical pain.... She didn't know what to do... once again she was helpless. Akane didn't want to think... she didn't want these emotions.
'people die, it happens all the time.' Her logic told her. As ninja, she should just accept it...
Though this negativity awoken something else in her... a piece of the demon. It was just a memory, just the memory of the negativity that it brought her before.
'no this is your fault. You were supposed to help people.
'What could you have done?'
Akane had three different sides fighting... her logic telling her to it happens... the unfamiliar voice telling her it was her fault... she could have done something... The silence, it was filled with her own thoughts.
"This can't be happening...." Akane spoke out loud, her head was too loud.
'It is, and it is just something that happens.' Her logic said.
'No, you are supposed to save people. You are weak. and helpless.
Akane shook her head. She hoped that there could be a chance, maybe this was a misunderstanding.
What good can foolish hope be? Hope wont do any good here. This is reality.
'This is reality. She is gone.'
Akane groaned, as she cried out loud. No... why? What was she going to do?
I'd say take revenge, and kill the ones who did this... but they apparently were killed... If you had gone over instead of waiting, then you could have done it yourself.
'Revenge wouldn't have done anything but cause trouble. Its pointless.
Akane hugged her knees, she was scared.... she was alone.... and these damn voices were annoying. They were loud, and confusing... she didn't understand.
"I'm so scared, can someone hold me?" Akane spoke out loud... but no one was around.... She wanted to hug someone, she wanted to cry.
'You are alone because you are weak. if you had just done something, you'd still have your parents.
'Ninja's shouldn't get scared. There was nothing you can do, it is illogical to have fear.
Akane tried to ignore the voices, they were not helping.... she didnt want them. "Mom, dad, can you hear me? if you can... I'm sorry.... I 'm scared.... I just want to.... I don't want to be alone...." She mumbled out loud....
'You can't speak to the dead. Maybe they'd hear you if you prevented their deaths.
'These emotions will get in the way of your goal. You have to purge these emotions to become a better ninja, you can't get so working up everytime someone dies.'
Akane held her head, "Please stop...."
'Stop what? explaining the truth? I thought you were smart enough to understand things.
Akane shook her head, then she held her legs tightly. It hurt. she wanted quiet, she wanted to forget....
Akane locked herself in her room.... She couldn't even get the paperwork done. She didnt want to talk to anyone, not even herself. But the voices just kept being so loud. One telling her she was helpless and weak, the other telling her she shouldn't feel. She wanted to feel happy.... she wanted her mom back... her dad... She didn't know who she could go to...
She had no clue where her friends were.... they were gone too.
Akane locked herself in her own house for a few days. She refused to contact anyone. During those few days, she was at war with herself. She didn't eat, and she was slowly beginning to separate her mind, trying to forget this pain.
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